Friday, 26 February 2016

The Prompt - Control

Control
I'm falling, out of control.
There is nothing to catch me, nothing to hold me up. Everything I thought I knew, all the certainties of life are gone. They went when you left.
I'm too old to be an orphan yet that is what I am. The twin anchors of my life have gone. I'm not the first this has happened to, I'm not alone in this but it feels as if I'm totally and utterly alone. Bereft and alone.
The time for tears has passed yet I still feel on the verge of weeping at unexpected moments. A word, a phrase, a memory, all have the power to upset and unnerve.
While you were here with us, you were the control in our lives. We came to you for advice, for support. We came to you to share our joys and happiness. We looked to you for guidance and knew you would exert the control we needed.
Now I am adrift, I'm falling and out of control. How do I manage, how do we manage without you? 
    
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10 comments:

  1. SENCO Cat Herder28 February 2016 at 06:48

    Joanne, I am wiping away the tears that have sprung unintentionally after reading your poem - it touched my heart - how beautiful - how sensitive. Thank you :) Special Teaching at Pempi’s Palace

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    1. Jo's Writing Space28 February 2016 at 12:44

      Thank you for such a wonderful comment. I'm glad that this post touched you (sorry to make you cry though)

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  2. mumturnedmom28 February 2016 at 15:52

    Oh Jo, I'm so sorry. This is beautiful and so full of emotion, wonderful writing. Thank you so much for sharing with #ThePrompt x

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    1. Jo's Writing Space28 February 2016 at 18:47

      Thanks for your lovely comment, Sara. Don't feel sad for me though; this is old news, 15 years old but it seemed like an appropriate emotion to mine for this prompt.

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  3. Jenny Evans2 March 2016 at 19:19

    Thanks you for sharing this emotional and honest post! I'm sure it wasn't easy to write.

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    1. Jo's Writing Space3 March 2016 at 09:13

      It was a challenge but sometimes it's good to get things out, no matter how low they make you feel at the time. Thanks for stopping by and leaving a comment, Jenny!

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  4. Unknown7 March 2016 at 14:50

    This is so beautifully written and I really do feel for you. I worry about this, about losing my mum and as a result, control. I am thinking of you. #ThePrompt

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    1. Jo's Writing Space10 March 2016 at 08:24

      Thank you for your kind words Victoria. It was a tough time but now the memories are all positive and happy. Although it seems that Mum is still living in my head, as that annoying, sensible voice that tries to stop me doing fun stuff!

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  5. Unknown9 March 2016 at 15:24

    Beautiful post so wonderfully written, sending strength x

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    1. Jo's Writing Space10 March 2016 at 08:25

      Thank you Becky. Some things are hard to write about but need to be faced from time to time.

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