Storm Warning
Whenever I hear thunder or see lightening flash across the
sky I’m transported back to the kitchen in my grandmother’s house. At the first
hint of a storm she’d rush about opening doors so the lightening could find a
way out if it came into the house. There was also something to be done with
knives but I can’t remember what that was. Then we’d all sit under the kitchen
table holding hands until the storm passed. For a while I was terrified of
thunder storms but now I enjoy watching the lightening blazing through the
heavy clouds and listening to the rain pounding down onto the patio. Thunder
still makes me jump but I no longer have the need to fling the doors open.
My mother’s side of the family seemed to have many
superstitions and rituals that other families didn’t. As a city child I was
fascinated by the country lore of my grandmother. She told me that when cows
all sit down together in a field it meant rain was coming. If she caught sight
of the cows in the water meadow opposite her house lying down she’d rush to
fetch the washing in and hang it around the house on wooden clothes horses,
even if it was a warm sunny day. As soon as the cows stood up the washing would
go back out on the line. She also told me that horses couldn’t lie down or they’d
die. I was heart broken when I saw the lovely brown and white foal that had
been born on the farm down the lane lying down. Convinced it was dead I cried
for an hour solid and picked a bunch of flowers to put next to the fence of its
field. Imagine my surprise when it was running about the field swishing its
tail when I got back there! My grandmother said I must have been mistaken about
it lying down but I was sure of what I had seen. My father laughed so long and
loud when I told him that he had to wipe his eyes with his hankie.
Grandmother thought that things were very strange and wrong
in the city where I lived. She visited once a year and criticised everything. I
copied my mother when she rolled her eyes as grandmother picked a fault with
something else about city life. She distrusted everything: there were too many
buses, yet she moaned that her village had a poor bus service; there were too
many cars, yet she moaned when the Rag and Bone man came past with his horse
and cart; it was too hot in her room, yet she moaned about the smell of the
city air when we opened a window. Everything was wrong even down to the pegs my
mother used on the washing line. We had wooden spring pegs which flew across
the garden if the spring got twisted. Grandmother used the old fashioned one
piece pegs that could be covered in scraps of fabric and turned into little
dolls. We loved to play with the pegs and her fabric bag when we visited. We
turned all the pegs into little people, imagined a village for them to live in
and told stories about their lives until it was time to go home. When I was
grown up and helped grandmother to peg out the washing there were still faded
faces on some of the pegs from my childhood.
Some of the superstitions seemed harmless enough, such as
not putting new shoes on the table. If you did the shoes would pinch and never
be comfortable. Others were darker, more grown up and a bit frightening. Every
Halloween we made tiny figures out of twigs, wool and fabric scraps. We’d hide
them among the shrubs and trees in the garden to guard the home over the coming
year. Sometimes we’d search for these little people later on in the year,
moving branches and dead leaves in the places where we’d hidden them. Sometimes
we’d find them, toppled over by animals or the wind. But sometimes they had
vanished leaving no trace. Grandmother said these figures had been killed
fighting goblins or demons and had been burned in a cold terrible fire. This
frightened us more than the imagined evil we’d been trying to keep away, the
thought of demons and goblins roaming around our peaceful city garden. As we
got older we weren’t so keen to carry on with that particular tradition, it
seemed a bit silly. Once I’d studied The Crucible I warned grandmother that a
few hundred years ago she’d have been burned as a witch. She smiled and said
that people were entitled to there beliefs and traditions. But I know that my
grandmother still hid the twig people around her garden until her death.
As the thunder storm passes over I am reminded of a terrible
storm when I was a child. I was staying with my grandmother and it had been a
hot, humid day. Everyone was feeling really grumpy and cross with each other,
clothes sticking to our bodies and nowhere cool to take refuge. My grandfather was
in his workshop, a vast barn of a building which fascinated us but was
forbidden to us. We were not allowed in there unless grandfather invited us in
and under no circumstances were we to touch anything. It was an Aladdin’s cave
to us, filled with things we longed to ask about or touch. Hanging from the
rafters were several rusted bicycles, one with no tyres and one with an old
wicker basket on the front. That one was the one my uncle had ridden into a
lamppost when he’d been dared to do a wheelie by my Dad. There were strings of
pungent onions from the garden, woven together by grandfather into beautiful
plaits. There were seed trays waiting to be filled in the spring, an enormous
lawn mower with a spare grass collector, oiled tools hanging from a board,
ladders, plant pots, three carpet beaters, buckets with holes in or no handles,
coils of rope, stacked paint tins dribbling yellow or blue or green dried paint
down the sides, fishing rods, a broken down motor cycle in pieces in one
corner. It was a magical place and we wished we were allowed in, especially on
this hot day as it was gloriously cool inside. But we were denied that refuge
and had to make do with standing on tiptoes and peering through the cobwebby
windows.
I got bored staring through the window and wandered off on
my own. I skirted the herb garden, running my fingers through the lavender and
rosemary, sending a glorious scent into the heavy air. I weaved my way between
the rows of runner beans feeling the cool green leaves rub my cheeks and
forehead. In the distance I could see the back of the neighbouring cottages
with their off set square windows looking out at me as I strode through the
grass in the orchard. There was a tiny passage between the cottages and the
wall of my grandparent’s garden which promised a cool refuge from the heat.
Seed heads stuck to my socks and skirt as I pushed my way through thigh high
grass, ducking below the overhanging branches of apple, pear and plum trees.
When I reached the end of the garden I turned left towards
the dark passage. Usually I was too scared to go in alone but I knew that it
was cool and dark and the sweat was running between my shoulder blades and
sticking my hair to my scalp. I wanted to sit quietly for a while in the cool,
not to feel the sun beating down on my head. I squeezed myself between the two
walls and shuffled forwards. There was no vegetation here, it was too dry and
dark for anything to grow yet in the winter there were strange fungus things
that smelled of rot and death which grew here. I wondered if they were hiding
underground or inside the walls during summertime but there was no sign of
anything like that. As I pushed further into the passage it got darker and
harder to see. If I looked up I could make out a thin sliver of sky, blue and
cloudless. It looked hot and sticky from this shaded place. The cottage walls
were uneven and in places the passageway got wide enough for me to stand square
on and in one of these wider places I slid down the wall and sat on the dirt
floor. I knew I was getting my dress filthy and I’d be in trouble when I went
back but I didn’t care, I was cool and away from the sun, that was all that
mattered. I stretched my legs out and my foot brushed against something. In the
dark it was hard to see what was there; I knelt up and reached out to find what
it was. My fingers brushed against something hard and sharp. I closed my
fingers around it and pulled it towards me.
When I saw what it was I dropped it into my lap with a gasp.
It was one of the poppets that we made every Halloween. What was it doing here?
I only remembered putting them under trees and shrubs not up against walls. Who
had put it here? The passage was so narrow it couldn’t have been a grown up,
they’d never squeeze through. But if it was a child and it wasn’t me or my
sister then who? I picked the poppet up and looked more closely. The twigs were
very brittle, one had snapped when I’d kicked it and hung limply by a tread of
bark. The fabric was very dirty, fraying and the pattern hard to see. One piece
looked as if it had flowers and there was a scrap of lace tucked in. Tiny
stitches held the costume together and there was a scrap of wool tied on top as
if it were hair. This poppet had been made with more care than the ones we
made. I rested it against the wall and looked down the passageway where it had
been hidden. There was a whole crowd of them! As far as I could see there were
poppets, standing against the wall, lying in the dirt, piled up against each
other. It was as if a village of tiny dolls was hiding between these walls in
my grandparent’s garden.
I felt strange, uneasy as I looked at the poppets. They
seemed to be watching and waiting which I knew was nonsense. They were dolls
made from sticks and fabric, they had no eyes and they weren’t alive. But I
couldn’t shake the feeling that I was being watched. I felt very cold and my
breathing quickened. The wall against my back seemed to be pushing me further
into the passage and the little light that spilled down was fading away. The
sweat between my shoulders was icy cold, chilling me until I felt myself start
to shiver. A sense of panic was rising within me and I wanted to be away from
here very quickly. I pushed against the dirt floor, scrambling against the
crumbling walls until I was standing. The poppet fell to the ground and I
backed away from it, never taking my eyes from it almost as if I expected it to
move towards me. I edged towards the garden as fast as I could, hardly feeling
the rough brickwork scraping my arms. As I popped out from between the walls I
dared to glance back. I could see the poppets arranged in rows three or four
deep going back as far as I could see. A smell of damp fungus wafted through
the air and I turned and ran back to the house as fast as I could.
I burst into the kitchen just as the storm broke. A clap of
thunder made me scream and as soon as I had let that first scream out I was
unable to stop. Mother grabbed me and shook me until I stopped screaming, the
tears started to flow and I sobbed in her arms. Grandmother was flapping about
opening doors and muttering about lightening bolts and fires. She dragged my
sister under the table leaving mother and me clinging to each other in front of
the fireplace. The rain began to pound down and lightening flashed across the
sky. It lit up the clouds from within, a dazzling lightshow that was enjoyed by
my grandfather leaning on the door frame of his workshop, mug of tea in hand.
I really enjoyed reading this. The way in which it weaves a tale is intriguing and the poppets sound really spooky! I am trying to work out how they got there now! Funnily enough we had a lot of thunder today - so it made it come to life even more. Thanks for linking to Prose for Thought x
ReplyDeleteI wrote this when there was a thunderstorm and it's amazing how many people are reading this with a storm overhead. So glad that you enjoyed it too Vic!
DeleteI love all the old things my Granny used to tell me and it's funny how much we believed them then. Funnily enough we had a thunder storm here in our patch of Devon today and it was the loudest I have ever heard. It was like the storm was directly above us, frightening but also exhilarating! Prose 4 Thought
ReplyDeleteStorms can be invigorating can't they? I was inspired by a storm overhead so it's interesting how many are reading it with a storm brewing!
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