Friday, 28 February 2014

Here come the excuses!

Well it's nearly St David's Day and my poor blog has been neglected since New Year's Day.  So much for a new start!

I'm not doing too well with the 'resolutions' either - I have managed to try a new food each month (January, fennel; February, quinoa) but the others have fallen by the wayside.  This is why I'm so rubbish at resolutions.

Anyway, instead of making a whole bunch of excuses I thought I'd simply explain what the problem has been.

I started a new job at the start of the year and, like most teaching jobs, it takes far more of my time than those I'm actually timetabled/paid for.  Everything was going well, I enjoyed the job and was getting my head round what was going on.  Things seemed to be going well.  That should  have put me on my guard; things rarely go smoothly in my life!

Then it happened.  Another incident of workplace bullying and I'm back where I was several years ago - stressed out, off work and on pills.  I'm feeling very sorry for myself, as you can imagine, but I'm also cross with myself for falling apart again.  I know, I know it's not me , it's them but that doesn't stop me feeling like a total failure.  Am I destined never to work outside of the house again, just in case I run into another workplace bully?  What is it about me that reacts so badly to these people?  More to the point, do I attract them? It certainly feels that way!

So now I'm waiting for a call about some therapy/counselling and trying to remain relatively positive about where my life will go now.  I can't see anything beyond the next few days but hope that there will be a light at the end of the latest tunnel that's not an oncoming train!

1 comment:

  1. I hope you will not let the bullies win and that you will find support from the blogging community. There are lots of people sharing similar experiences and supporting one another. There are some links in my post for time to talk day. Sue